Piles of Rags to Love and Cherish

by Holistic Wellness

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mrsslowloris second track is so grungy devo-ey and i love it so far. fiona and i are boppin and happy about this, nice work! this has been your live update.
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Bounds on predicted paths of aerosols like kissing streams Abuts an orphaned regimen and folderol but busted seams Brazen advertisements flash outside to nobody in particular Hallucinated funerals in luxury yogathleisure Hey, you're rinsing off the day with yesterday Hey a sigil on it's way this may dismay Bounds on predicted paths of personnel a rasping breath A patchwork pantomime of our capacity and gross excess Constrain the sequelae to no avail and last until Ambulances, helicopters then the glasses clink filled Hey, you're rinsing off the day with yesterday Hey a sigil on it's way dismay dismay Bounds on predicted paths of emperors like residues Abuts an orphaned sheaf of complex miracles but the bills come due A permanent contracted state and hopelessness oh that's the grift You must now report to the consent factory, time for your shift Hey, you're rinsing off the day with yesterday Hey a sigil on it's way this may dismay Bounds on predicted paths of mental health, unwell unbound Multiplying fractions together in our masks, unsafe unsound Hey, you're rinsing off the day with yesterday Hey a sigil on it's way dismay dismay
2.
Hard for me to ask pertinent questions Hard for me to organize ideas sequentially Hard for me to lose my patience, in fact Hard for me to articulate why I like things Grid imposed, damn won't do Ground laddder star canopic jar Hard for me to consume the opinions of someone so fucked in the head Just keep scrolling, scrolling, put it away in my pocket Hard to maintain a repository of unfinished ideas Jump of the page and hide under the pillow These piles of rags to love and cherish Hard for me to explain what's holding me back Grid imposed, damn won't do Ground laddder star canopic jar Hard for me to accept specific criticism Hard for me to journal about my day Extremely hard for me to tell a lie Hard for me to cease body-focused repetitive behaviors Grid imposed, damn won't do Ground laddder star canopic jar Hard for me to explain my political orientation Hard for me to describe scenes of import from my life For instance, when I moved to Albany My first apartment was behind the 20 Mall Western ave and New Karner road That first winter I went up the Northway To meet up with a friend from Delaware In a mobile home in Halfmoon I bought some weed My friend told me My girlfriend at the time was cheating on me And had a pregnancy scare But didn't tell me I was pretty tilted But I told her I would take her back If she quit smoking cigarettes I was a real stupid piece of shit back then And maybe certain things just resolve themselves Hard for me to know if I'm getting any better These piles of rags to love and cherish Hard for me to explain what's holding me back Grid imposed, damn won't do Ground laddder star canopic jar Osiris teaching Bayes' theorem to toddlers
3.
On every surface There is a message In every message There is a context Beside the context There is a motive Atop the motive It's a battle Is it mine to win? Oh, it's gonna look good for me But I can't evaluate it I can't evaluate it I can't evaluate it I can't evaluate it at all On every surface Is a reflection In every reflection There is a point source Just outside the point source The flux is analytic In my analysis It's a battle Is it mine to win? Oh, it's gonna look good for me But I can't evaluate it I can't evaluate it I can't evaluate it I can't evaluate it at all It's not a number It's not a time It's not a value It's not a feeling It's not anything It's not anything
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Settle into a comfortable position Begin by taking a breath with awareness Being present for the full duration Of the in breath and out breath Notice the breath Rest your awareness Where the breath is most present And if your mind wanders Without judgment, return yourself to the breath Now allow your awareness To move to your heart center As best you can Try to find a memory of a strong sense of loving-kindess Either from someone or toward someone Not to find the perfect image or experience Or be concerned if you conjure many But to recreate tender feelings Of prior experiences of loving-kindness As best you can And allow these feelings to grow in your heart center And now in your mind's eye Bring into focus An image of someone you care about A person you already have Existing warm feelings towards Or feel love for Or have a sense of positive connection It doesn't have to be a perfect relationship Or one without conflict The idea is to find an image Feeling sense of someone you know That you already have warm feelings for And as best you can Hold the image of this person in your heart center And from the feeling of loving-kindness In the center of your chest Extend warm wishes to this person you care about And repeat to yourself silently May they be at ease May they be content with their life May they be joyful May they feel safe and secure May they be at ease May they be content with their life May they feel joyful May they be safe and secure And extending warm wishes of loving-kindness To this person that you care about Held from the very center Of the source of loving-kindness In your own heart Allow the image of this person you care about To gently dissolve from your mind's eye Resting your attention back To your heart center The well of loving-kindess In your body And now bring to mind an image Of a person you don't really know Maybe on the street or on TV But don't feel any connection with One way or another And again as best you can From your own heart Extending warm wishes of loving-kindness Towards this person you hardly know about Emanating from your heart center And saying silently to yourself May this person be at ease May this person be content with their life May this person be joyful May this person feel safe and secure And again May they be at ease May they be content with their life May they be joyful May they feel safe and secure And again May they be at ease May they be content with their life May they be joyful May they feel safe and secure And now With warm loving care Turn your attention now Back to the sensations of Your breath in your heart center Allowing the image of this person to fade This person that you hardly know Release In this moment With your feelings of warmth and kindness Knowing that you can carry these feelings Throughout your day Warmth and kindness Knowing that you can always find Your heart center When needed
5.
Get to the banya, to the banya Ask attendant for the venik Let him hit you, have a moment Take a cold bath and egress This swell is my second adolescence This shell when the newer ink is dry Cracked open and emergent is the essence Twice as old and about two thirds as shy Adjust the focus with the thumbscrews Watch the feature enter viewport Supernova supervision Superstructure imprecision Hadamard gate phase transition Watch eutectic boil over Understanding undertaking Underlying facade breaking Trues and falses on the lattice Apparatus getting sober This swell is my second adolescence This spell that my sisters bless the sky A skull for our sphere and its projection A domain for our function to apply Be your own womb, be your own womb You're the teacher, you're the student Transcendental transformation Transitory transportation Order razors, epilator Drink a seltzer charge devices Same dimension same abstention Same corruption same eruption Higher calling dreams I'm falling At your service feeling nervous This swell is my second adolescence This shell when the newer ink is dry Cracked open and emergent is the essence Twice as old and about two thirds as shy This swell is my second adolescence This spell that my sisters bless the sky A skull for our sphere and its projection A domain for our function to apply
6.
Until the oscillations cease The oscillations must increase The characteristics of the tail The usual descriptors fail The opportunities arise And distributions can comprise reality disguised The hand over your head protects you Until it doesn't no more The operator's self-adjoint For whom the cruelty's the point Observe the diagram commute A topos honest and astute Abyssal force field consul cult Enclosure's past and end result Encroaching void priesthood exult Colimit Christ consult The hand over your head protects you Until it doesn't no more Wages against housework it's too late To save us wretched souls from fate Collecting ash from forest floor Of state space fire must explore Do pushups to train your physique Do pushouts satisfy mystique? A clarity of purpose speak Kaleidoscope technique The hand over his head protects The hand over his head protects The hand over his head protects him Until it doesn't no more The hand over his head protects him Until it doesn't no more The hand over his head protects A circle of protection hex The arm recedes and infests The hand over his head protects him Until it doesn't no more The arm recedes and infests

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Recorded 2019-2020 in New York City

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released November 3, 2020

Abe Hmiel - Instruments, vocals, mixing/mastering and design

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